and that holds me back
I cannot express all the thoughts in my head
my mouth is bound by a clasp
I cannot scream at the top of my lungs
spew out all the hatred from my blood
I cannot even scribe my emotions
that’s just not how it works
My fingertips feel as though
they’ve been hammered down
Paralysing me
stripping me of the only thing
That has kept me alive for all this time
altering my identity to a mime
I worry I cannot hold onto this any longer
the noise within is deafening
But the problem lies outside
as the tape holding my mouth shut tight
Reflects the silence
onto the other side
Now the only place my thoughts
emotions and feelings reside
Lay beside
one other in darkness
Never to be known
and me, to forever be alone
-a2