Chhah Maheene (Six Months)

January, February, March, April, May, June

Six months that haven’t passed too soon

You drifted, you grew 

You laughed, you flew 

You let yourself be 

You did as you pleased

Absence of solitude lingered on your lips 

It’s what you needed to taste 

But the keys to the tank were in his hands 

And you were locked and drowned instead

There has to be more 

This couldn’t be it

You were so sure 

What if it really is? 

It’s not what’s done that hurt

But you were left to scrape against sandpaper 

Smoothing out splinters,

Chips of his words 

Was it so easy? 

Did this have to be done? 

Sit down and ask the heart, not mind 

Was it all just for fun? 

January, February, March, April, May, June 

Six months that perhaps passed too soon

You are not weak 

You are not what they make you to be 

His ego was hurt 

Perhaps you’re still meant to be

You’re stunned by your strength 

And you know he’s hurting more 

You said what was right 

But it was his choice to let you go 

You're barely in pain

So you shouldn’t regret 

But don’t let your hopes 

Become a trap 

You know it's the attention you crave 

Not his love

You're proud of how you've been brave

Don't just give it all up

January, February, March, April, May, June 

Six months that passed too soon

You've yet to encounter this phase 

So I'll keep it brief and plain 

Regardless of whether you're still dazed 

Don't let your affair with solitude seep down the drain

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My new poem Chhah Maheene (Six Months) is available in hardcopy in the 5th edition of Lot's Wife magazine! It's always surreal to see my work on paper, in print; being able to hold it in my hands. If this time last year someone had told me that my poetry would be getting published (twice!!) I would've probably told them to shut up and stop giving me false hope lol, but I'm here and I'm so grateful for these opportunities! Thank you to everyone who supports and reads my work!

(Chhah Maheene means "Six Months" in the Hindi language)